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Im back.

 My goodness, ive been so ill :0( It all started with a cold, which turned into strep throat, which turned into a Chest infection, I then got my period again, after only 23 days, so ive been feeling pretty bad really :0(  The upside is that my appetite dissapeared and i didnt want beer, all i wanted was nightime meds and water!

I didnt weigh on Friday as i was feeling really bad still and felt bloated from my period, the last thing i needed was to see bad news and get depressed on top of it all.

Feeling better today, although my period os still here and still REALLY heavy!  I suffer from PCOS and Endemetriosis so im wondering if im being affected more because of the sickness?

Anyway, I have lost my appetite and havent missed my usual comforts, so im hoping that i will be able to do well this coming week.

Sorry to my buddies that ive been AWOL this past week or so, but i was feeling REALLY bad!

Hope everyone else is well x x x

Yesterday was Monster Jam day!

We had bought tickets for our 5 year old son to go see them at the Citrus Bowl (Orlando) and we got Pit passes too.  Needless to say Joey had a ball and got to meet his fave drivers and get autographs.  It was a full day, unfortunately we had to work in the morning, but we took a pack lunch with us and ate it in the car park when we arrived at 2pm, The put party was 2-5pm and the food they were serving at the concessions was Horrid….Everything was deep fried or covered in melted cheese….lol…I can honestly say i was one of the smallest ladies there!!!!! 

Anyway, the Monster Jam event didnt start until 7:30pm and once we had parked we couldnt leave again, so the only option for dinner was the concessions :0( (next time we will take another cooler and head back to the car for an hour or so)  I ended up getting a burger, but i just got the one, with fries and shared it with Joey, they were large portions so Joey would never have eaten one to himself.  It was a double burger so we had one slice of meat each and shared the fries…. I tried to make the best of what was a pretty dire situation…I also drank 4 bottles of water!!!!

It was a great family day out though, so im not complaining, its just amazing that with all the concession choices there was not one healthy choice to be had!!!  Sigh…no wonder we are an obese nation at the moment!

Well, after all my whinging and depression over my weight this week i have actually lost 1lb.

I know its not alot, but its going in the right direction at least.  I havent done well this week, but obviously just being aware of my weight has helped me cut out something along the way.

Am starting my meal plan this Sunday, have decided not to wait until Monday as i dont need to, but cant Start Saturday as we have tickets for Monster Jam and will be out ALL day and im sure that there will be no healthy choices at any of the concessions stands :0P

Feel happier already….Only 47lbs to go…if i do 1 per week i could be at goal by xmas :0)

So, after yesterdays rant and the lovely replies, i have made a plan.

 On Sunday I am going to the grocery store to shop :0)

I am making a meal plan for the week, the meal plan includes:

Breakfast

Mid morning Snack

Lunch

Mid afternoon snack

Dinner.

I am going to take a pack up with me to work and make sure i have no spare cash to cave and buy goodies!

Once i have had a good week, i will feel motivated and want another, its just the getting one good week in that has been a struggle so far!

Im going to follow the WW points, as i find that the best way to keep a track of what i eat.  I am also buying some Green Tea as a friend recommended it to me today.

Wish me luck ladies :0)

HELP!!!!

Please, i need some ideas on how to start this diet/healthy eating…whatever you want to call it.

Cant seem to get into the swing of WW for some reason, and im trying to make healthy choices but stumbling at every hurdle.

I need a kick start (a kick up the ass more like).  I need to be positive.  How can i start this??????

Its really starting to drive me mad now…i feel like im growing by the hour…honestly i do :0(

Any help and suggestions are very welcome… also the odd kick up the ass is welcome too!

My Weekend away was Fab… The Rugby game was great and my team won which was a bonus :0)

The belated NYE party on Friday night resulted in a rather bad hangover on Saturday morning (throwing up and everything) but i still managed to get my act together and drive to Jacksonville…All was made better half way there with a Macdonalds breakfast sandwich (ooops)  Ate, Drank and were merry all weekend.

It was a much needed relaxing time for just me and the hubby and we have both come back refreshed and revitalised and even more in love than ever!

I met all the rugby players and had pics taken with them, which was nice as there is nothing like a big Rugby player to make a girl feel rather small and petite :0)

Am ready to get back on the wagon now, get healthy, lose some pounds and move forward into a great 2009.

Thanks for all the support so far buddies!!! you have all been great :0)

Do you know what?

I shouldnt be fat! the amount of physical work i do combined with the nervous energy i have had of late should have me burning calories like hell.

Ive had one hell of a January so far… and i just dont seem to have time to think about me.  So im giving up till Monday..

I know..I know..its a bad idea..But i have a party to attend tomorow night, its a belated New years celebration with friends that werent here for the real New year…so there will be food and drink and merryment.

then on saturday me and the hubby take off for our dirty weekend away (ive even hired a convertible as a suprise) and we are going to a good old English Rugy League game up in jacksonville and the after party has a bar with $1 draught beers…

Sooooooooo. From Monday i will make time for me…im going for a pedicure and to get my eyebrows waxed, then im going to make sure i go for two very long brisk walks per day with my little dawgy and will follow WW to the ‘T’

sorry buddies…but i WILL be back on Monday x x x

Ooooh its been a bad day :0(

I started off the day by missing breakfast, i dont usually do this but i had forgotten to buy more cereal and had nothing else in that was suitable.   So i went to work and suprisingly didnt feel too hungry while i was working, i drank two bottles of water, when lunch time rolled around i suddenly felt sick and starving…My husband and son wanted chinese food, so we went to the chinese buffet (ooops) I tried to make healthy choices, like chicken and broccoli and chicken and Mushroom, but i still left feeling really guilty and fat!

The Chinese kept me full up after that and i didnt want any Dinner, but now, its 8:40pm and im snacking, thats why im on here, keep my fingers busy and away from the cupboard…Im drinking water which is good! 

I need to be able to do this….and i just Cant! Grrrrrrrr.  I think i will aim for a 4lb loss by the end of january, that way my 1lb per week for 52 weeks goal is sort of still on track!

:0(

UGH! im so disgusted in myself.

I found my scales and weighed myself this morning and am a whopping 188lbs! (13 stone 4lbs for any english peeps reading this) im only 5′3.5″ and therefore am Obese…waaaah!

My husband who is 6′1″ tall got weighed too…he is 177.5lbs…. I weigh more than my husband :0(

Spent the whole day feeling ugly fat and disgusting, have been so busy at work too, i started the day with a healthy breakfast of Bran Flakes and Skimmed milk…then took my skinny husband to Macdonalds for 2 Sausage and Egg McMuffins :0( ( i had nothing)

Then for lunch we were eating on the run so i took a small detour and went to chik-fil-a and got a grilled chicken sandwich, no dressing and no fries…. Then for dinner I have had a small bowl of Chilli, low fat shredded cheese and some corn chips!

I was going to have a drink tonight while watching American Idol (Yay its back) but im on the water.

I feel so down with myself….i feel unattractive and not girlie and petite at all :0(

POO!

So the weekend rolls around once more and all my good intentions and strength just fly out the window!  I have eaten a Curry (cooked by my hubby) a chinese takeaway and a Wendy’s all in 3 days….Bugger Bugger Bugger!!!

Ive also drank too much Bud Light too….. Weekends are so hard to control, im really dissapointed in myself, but just cant imagine that i will be strong enough to get through a whole weekend being good :0(

Next week is a given that i will be bad as my Husband and I are driving to Jacksonville for a Rugby League game, we have been invited to the players after party and the beer is $1 a pint…….I mean,  how do you say no to that?

I wish i could be fat and happy i really do!  I enjoy the goodies (or baddies as i should call them) as i am eating and drinking them, but then go into full remorse mode once they are down and gone and making little fat cells multiply :0(

Poo! what a weekend!